Chilli Talks Abortion Plus Relationships With Dallas Austin and UsherPublished by Dior Noir on Wednesday, May 12, 2010 at 3:00 pm.
Celebrity dating reality shows can be extremely fluffy and superficial, but former TLC member Chilli got deep on the latest episode of her show What Chilli Wants and revealed she had an abortion at 20 -years-old.
“When I was in TLC, the first producer that we worked with was Dallas Austin,” she explained to a therapist on the show. “I was in the relationship, I got pregnant [for the] first time and I didn’t have the support. I was so scared and I did not know what to do and chose not to have it. One of the biggest mistakes….it messed me up. It broke my spirit.”
The act undoubtedly left Chili with some emotional scars: “I cried almost every day for almost 9 years,” she said. “And then I was caught up. I had to have a baby. I had to fix it and the only way I could fix it was with that person. I could only have this baby with him because the baby I didn’t have was with him.”
Chilli and Dallas eventually had a son, Tron (pictured above), in 1997 but discontinued their relationship. After years of dealing with the producer Chilli linked up with Usher. She explained why it didn’t work with him either:
“The next relationship was with Usher. Coming out of a relationship where I wasn’t myself, I didn’t want to lose myself again,” she said. “I was like ‘If it’s something I don’t want to do, I’m really not going to do it.’ My heart was like ‘I love him, I want to be with him’ but it wasn’t working. It was a relationship that I didn’t feel I could be in for the rest of my life.”
Watch the full clip below, what do you think about Chilli’s revelations?