Contributor: Carrie Blackshaw

She may have gotten rid of a good 160 pounds, but that doesn’t mean she doesn’t feel like the fat girl when she looks in a mirror.

Star Jones recently took a seat on the Oprah Winfrey Show this week and came clean about her weight loss controversy and her abrupt exit from The View.

“I’m still 300 lbs. in my head some days,” the 47-year-old  tells Winfrey.

Jones said talking about her body left her feeling  “a little off kilter.”

“I was a little late getting up [today], and I’m always up at 6 a.m. But I realized that we were gonna talk about this and it scared me a bit.”

Pressed by Winfrey about what scared her, Jones responds, “Disappointing people. I was ashamed … That’s the word, that is actually the real word. I was ashamed that I couldn’t control my weight, that I was an addict for all practical purposes, that I had never stuck to a real diet, that I’d never stuck to a real exercise program.”

And as for losing her job? She says her weight was to blame.

“I was hurt and upset initially,” she says. “I’m so sorry that I placed a burden on my colleagues. I never asked them to lie and don’t know where the Pilates and portion control” — an explanation for her dramatic weight-loss that circulated at the time — “came from. I think a tabloid actually wrote that.”

No word on her failed marriage. Maybe we’ll have to wait another few years to get the goods on that diddy?

Al Reynolds speaks his mind about the media and his marriage to Star Jones on his MySpace page, reports PEOPLE.

“If you think you are having a tough day, may I propose you walk in my shoes for a few hours,” he writes. “In my mind, it feels like ‘Dump on Al Month.’ And I’m not having fun yet. I have been called a gigolo, a freeloader, unemployed, a sham and many other things that don’t bear repeating. People on television, radio and the internet have spoken disparagingly of my life, my sexuality, my career and my integrity.”

Reynolds didn’t divulge any details about his impending divorce from Star, but says…”I know in my heart that I entered my marriage with love and the best of intentions and leave it with great sadness that it didn’t work.”