Toya: ‘They Hurt My Feelings a Lot’Published by MediaMaven on Wednesday, May 5, 2010 at 9:11 am.
The day my mom and brother left, I was a little bit emotional. When you’re emotional, you may say things you don’t really mean. At the time, I did kind of feel like they had used me. I did the studio thing with my brother. I was helping my mom try to get everything going right. I felt like they were just playing with my feelings and didn’t care. They hurt my feelings a lot. I really cried about it. Then, I thought about it like, this is not where they want to be. Maybe I’m being selfish by trying to make them stay here.
I put a lot of my energy into trying to help my family, but I keep getting rejected. Now, I want to focus on myself and let certain things go. Let it be what it’s going to be, ’cause it is what it is. Move on with my life.
It hurt me to see them leave after I wanted this family to be together so badly. We were having so much fun, but I can’t keep crying over spilled milk. They’re letting me know they don’t want to be here. I will continue to support them and visit them, but sometimes you have to love from a distance. Things ain’t gonna be what you want them to be all the time. You have to want the same thing. Putting in all that effort without their support doesn’t work. Let it go.
I thought the grand opening of Tiny’s shop was a success. I’m very proud of Tiny. At first, we didn’t think it would happen that day ’cause everything wasn’t in place. She pulled it off, and is doing very good right now. I’m very proud and very happy for her. The business is booming. That’s what’s up.