One lesson most men learn the hard way is listening to moms when she tells you what NOT to do. I learned I was 17, on a rainy day in the ‘hood when my raise (Pittsburgh slang for mother, because she raised you) begged my best friend and I not to leave the crib. She thought she heard gunshots and didn’t want us outside.
When you’re 17 you know it all, so of course we left. Sparing you all the minutia, after a 15 minute walk to the store, both of us were handcuffed on a wet curb, surrounded by flashing lights and a gang of Pittsburgh’s finest. Somebody was shooting, out of a car, at another car that eventually crashed. We were walking down the street, not driving, but apparently we were good enough: we fit the description.
Besides listening to the raise at all costs, that I would often ‘fit the description’ was the other lesson I learned on that curb (that and that cold, wet curbs ain’t comfortable). Since then I’ve fit the description walking home from high school (somebody got pistol-whipped by a few black males wearing blue, and for that me and two friends, in a mostly-black neighborhood were stopped and searched), driving home from work in Baltimore, and walking to a friend’s house in DC.
That first time was in 1994, years before an incident on the New Jersey Turnpike made “driving while black” a household term. It was proof, sadly, of the many -isms that black mothers have to teach their boys about survival in America: how to navigate and survive the inevitable experience of fitting the description. (Don’t talk back. Don’t answer any questions except your name and address. If you’re in a car, put your hands on the dash and don’t reach for anything…To this day I don’t keep my registration in the glove box; in case I’m pulled over, no one will have the excuse that ‘he reached for something.’)
But even with all those survival skills the raise gave me, one question remains? When will I no longer fit the description?